i suck :(

separation

with still one more exam to go, it is not exactly the best time to think about what's to come. indeed, having a late paper has given me the excuse to avoid facing the thought of eventual separation from friends i've come to know in my years here at warwick.

but there's no more running away from it as people around finish their exams, get ready to leave, go on holidays, celebrate their last birthdays in warwick, look into shipping companies to transport their belongings home.

what am i to do after my exams finish? i guess before i know it, its goodbye to many familiar faces, perhaps the last time seeing many of them in years in come. good friends keep in contact whereever they go, but ... that's not the point. i dun even keep in contact much with friends, i'm just not the type. the point is spending time together. being able to live life in the same community. that's going to be missing and that kind of sucks. and there's no way i can't stop it.

it was great munhou and i could dedicate a song for vidya on her birthday tonight. she's been the kindest to all of us here. i thought the song was really sad, like everyone is leaving soon. so i'm glad i had to chance to perform it for a friend, and i guess its kind of how i feel having to leave the friends i've made here one day soon.

If a picture paints a thousand word, then why i can't paint you?

The words will never show, the you i've come to know

If a face could launch a thousand ships then where am i to go

There's no one home but you, you're all that's left me to

And when my love for life is running dry

You come and pour yourself on me

If a man could be two places at one time, i'd be with you

Tomorrow and today, besides you all the way

If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die

I'd spend the end with you. and when the world was through

Then one by one, the stars would all go out

And you and i would simply fly away

hai..